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  Table of Contents

  About the Author

  By the Same Author

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  Part One Kate Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Part Two Sara Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Part Three Sara Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Part Four Kate Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Extract: State of the Union Chapter One

  Also Available in Arrow A Special Relationship

  State of the Union

  Available in Hutchinson The Woman in the Fifth

  The Pursuit of Happiness

  'This is the kind of writing that isn't supposed to be written anymore – a stunning conflation of individual destiny with the broad sweeps of history . . . Let the hyperbole fall – this is the novel against which the rest of the year's output demands to be judged' Express on Sunday

  'A triumph' Mail on Sunday

  'This is a book that demands attention, gripping from the first pages to the closing chapters' Marie Claire

  'Kennedy really can tell a story . . . the twists in the plot are perfectly timed to keep the pages turning' The Times

  'Curl up and enjoy' Spectator

  'A big ambitious book . . . the storytelling is accomplished and the characters of the women, particularly Sara's true and singular voice, stay in the mind well after the last page' Irish Times

  'Kennedy chillingly evokes the atmosphere of disbelief, then visceral fear which tore media-America apart' Lisa Appignanesi, Independent

  'An engrossing fable of moral choice' Sunday Telegraph

  'This superb story of divided loyalties and personal tragedy will leave you pinned to your seat' Woman & Home

  'Escapism at its very best' Sunday Business Post

  'Postwar Manhattan simply leaps off the page' Independent on Sunday (Fifty Best)

  'Outstanding' Good Housekeeping

  About the author

  Douglas Kennedy's novels – The Dead Heart, The Big Picture, The Job, The Pursuit of Happiness, A Special Relationship, State of the Union, Temptation and The Woman in the Fifth – have all been highly praised bestsellers. He is also the author of three acclaimed travel books: Beyond the Pyramids, In God's Country and Chasing Mammon. His work has been translated into sixteen languages. In 2006 he received the French decoration of Chevalier de L'Ordre des Arts et des Lettres. Born in Manhattan in 1955, he lives in London with his wife and two children.

  ALSO BY DOUGLAS KENNEDY

  Fiction

  The Woman in the Fifth

  Temptation

  State of the Union

  A Special Relationship

  The Job

  The Big Picture

  The Dead Heart

  Non-fiction

  Chasing Mammon

  In God's Country

  Beyond the Pyramids

  The Pursuit of

  Happiness

  Douglas Kennedy

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  Once again for Grace Carley

  We do not what we ought;

  What we ought not, we do;

  And lean upon the thought

  That chance will bring us through.

  – Matthew Arnold

  Part One

  Kate

  One

  I FIRST SAW her standing near my mother's coffin. She was in her seventies – a tall, angular woman, with fine grey hair gathered in a compact bun at the back of her neck. She looked the way I hope to look if I ever make it to her birthday. She stood very erect, her spine refusing to hunch over with age. Her bone structure was flawless. Her skin had stayed smooth. Whatever wrinkles she had didn't cleave her face. Rather, they lent it character, gravitas. She was still handsome – in a subdued, patrician way. You could tell that, once upon a recent time, men probably found her beautiful.

  But it was her eyes that really caught my attention. Blue-grey. Sharply focused, taking everything in. Critical, watchful eyes, with just the slightest hint of melancholy. But who isn't melancholic at a funeral? Who doesn't stare at a coffin and picture themselves laid out inside of it? They say funerals are for the living. Too damn true. Because we don't just weep for the departed. We also weep for ourselves. For the brutal brevity of life. For its ever-accumulating insignificance. For the way we stumble through it, like foreigners without a map, making mistakes at every curve of the road.

  When I looked at the woman directly, she averted her gaze in embarrassment – as if I had caught her in the act of studying me. Granted, the bereaved child at a funeral is always the subject of everybody's attention. As the person closest to the departed, they want you to set the emotional tone for the occasion. If you're hysterical, they won't be frightened of letting rip. If you're sobbing, they'll just sob too. If you're emotionally buttoned up, they'll also remain controlled, disciplined, correct.

  I was being very controlled, very correct – and so too were the twenty or so mourners who had accompanied my mother on 'her final journey' – to borrow the words of the funeral director who dropped that phrase into the conversation when he was telling me the price of transporting her from his 'chapel of rest' on 75th and Amsterdam to this, 'her eternal resting place' . . . right under the LaGuardia Airport flight path in Flushing Meadow, Queens.

  After the woman turned
away, I heard the reverse throttle of jet engines and glanced up into the cold blue winter sky. No doubt several members of the assembled graveside congregation thought that I was contemplating the heavens – and wondering about my mother's place in its celestial vastness. But actually all I was doing was checking out the livery of the descending jet. US Air. One of those old 727s they still use for short hauls. Probably the Boston shuttle. Or maybe the Washington run . . .

  It is amazing the trivial junk that floats through your head at the most momentous moments of your life.

  'Mommy, Mommy.'

  My seven-year-old son, Ethan, was tugging at my coat. His voice cut across that of the Episcopalian minister, who was standing at the back of the coffin, solemnly intoning a passage from Revelations:

  God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes;

  And there shall be no more death, neither sorrow

  Nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain;

  For the former things are passed away.

  I swallowed hard. No sorrow. No crying. No pain. That was not the story of my mother's life.

  'Mommy, Mommy . . .'

  Ethan was still tugging on my sleeve, demanding attention. I put a finger to my lips and simultaneously stroked his mop of dirty blond hair.

  'Not now, darling,' I whispered.

  'I need to wee.'

  I fought a smile.

  'Daddy will take you,' I said, looking up and catching the eye of my ex-husband, Matt. He was standing on the opposite side of the coffin, keeping to the back of the small crowd. I had been just a tad surprised when he showed up at the funeral chapel this morning. Since he left Ethan and me five years ago, our dealings with each other had been, at best, businesslike – whatever words spoken between us having been limited to our son, and the usual dreary financial matters that force even acrimoniously divorced couples to answer each other's phone calls. Even when he's attempted to be conciliatory, I've cut him off at the pass. For some strange reason, I've never really forgiven him for walking right out of our front door and into the arms of Her – Ms Talking Head News-Channel-4-New-York media babe. And Ethan was just twenty-five months old at the time.

  Still, one must take these little setbacks on the chin, right? Especially as Matt so conformed to male cliché. But there is one thing I can say in my ex-husband's favor: he has turned out to be an attentive, loving father. And Ethan adores him – something that everyone at the graveside noticed, as he dashed in front of his grandmother's coffin and straight into his father's arms. Matt lifted him off the ground and I saw Ethan whisper his urination request. With a quick nod to me, Matt carried him off, draped across one shoulder, in search of the nearest toilet.

  The minister now switched to that old funeral favorite, the 23rd Psalm.

  Thou prepareth a table before me in the presence of mine enemies; thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

  I heard my brother Charlie choke back a sob. He was standing in the back of this sparse congregation of mourners. Without question, he had won the award for the Best Surprise Funeral Appearance – as he arrived at the chapel this morning off the red-eye from LA, looking ashen, spent, and deeply uncomfortable. It took me a moment to recognize him – because I hadn't seen him in over seven years, and because time had worked its nasty magic, rendering him middle-aged. Okay, I'm middle-aged too – just! – but Charlie (at fifty-five, nearly nine years my senior) really looked . . . well, I guess mature would be the right word, though world-weary might be a little more accurate. He'd lost most of his hair, and all of his physique. His face had become fleshy and loose. His waist bulged heavily at both sides – a spare tire that made his ill-fitting black suit appear even more of a sartorial misjudgment. His white shirt was open at the collar. His black tie was dappled with food stains. His entire countenance spoke of bad diet and a certain disappointment with life. I was certainly on cordial terms with the last of these concepts . . . but I was still stunned at just how badly he had aged, and that he had actually crossed the continent to say goodbye to a woman with whom he had only maintained nominal contact for the past thirty years.

  'Kate,' he said, approaching me in the lobby of the funeral chapel.

  He saw my face register shock.

  'Charlie?'

  There was an awkward moment when he reached to hug me, then thought better of it and simply took my two hands in his. For a moment we didn't know what to say to each other. Finally I managed a sentence.

  'This is a surprise . . .'

  'I know, I know,' he said, cutting me off.

  'You got my messages?'

  He nodded. 'Katie . . . I'm so sorry.'

  I suddenly let go of his hands.

  'Don't offer me condolences,' I said, my voice curiously calm. 'She was your mother too. Remember?'

  He blanched. Finally he managed to mumble, 'That's not fair.'

  My voice remained very calm, very controlled.

  'Every day for the last month – when she knew she was going – she kept asking me if you had called. Towards the end, I actually lied, and said you were phoning me daily to see how she was doing. So don't talk to me about fair.'

  My brother stared down at the funeral home linoleum. Two of my mother's friends then approached me. As they made the requisite sympathetic noises, it gave Charlie the opportunity to back away. When the service began, he sat in the last row of the funeral chapel. I craned my neck to check out the assembled congregation – and briefly caught his eye. He turned away in acute discomfort. After the service, I looked around for him, as I wanted to offer him the chance to ride with me in the so-called 'family car' to the cemetery. But he was nowhere to be found. So I traveled out to Queens with Ethan and my Aunt Meg. She was my father's sister – a seventy-four-year-old professional spinster who has been devoted to the destruction of her liver for the past forty years. I was pleased to see that she had remained sober for the occasion of her sister-in-law's send-off. Because on those rare occasions when she was practising temperance, Meg was the best ally you could have. Especially as she had a tongue on her like a pissed-off wasp. Shortly after the limo pulled away from the funeral home, the subject turned to Charlie.

  'So,' Meg said, 'the prodigal schmuck returns.'

  'And then promptly disappears,' I added.

  'He'll be at the cemetery,' she said.

  'How do you know that?'

  'He told me. While you were pressing the flesh with everyone after the service, I caught him on the way out the door. "Hang on for a sec," I told him, "and we'll give you a ride out to Queens." But he went all mealy-mouthed, saying how he'd rather take the subway. I tell you, Charlie's still the same old sad asshole.'

  'Meg,' I said, nodding toward Ethan. He was sitting next to me in the limo, deeply engrossed in a Power Rangers book.

  'He's not listening to the crap I'm talking, are you, Ethan?'

  He looked up from his book. 'I know what asshole means,' he said.

  'Attaboy,' Meg said, ruffling his hair.

  'Read your book, darling,' I said.

  'He's one smart kid,' Meg said. 'You've done a great job with him, Kate.'

  'You mean, because he knows bad language?'

  'I love a girl who thinks so highly of herself.'

  'That's me: Ms Self-Esteem.'

  'At least you've always done the right thing. Especially when it comes to family.'

  'Yeah – and look where it's gotten me.'

  'Your mother adored you.'

  'On alternate Sundays.'